What’s My Next Step? I Am Ready to Break Free & Move Forward

For several years, I have known that I was bogged down in a pit and that I wasn’t going anywhere except farther down. I am thousands of miles away from my homeland and away from the people that make my homeland home. I am in a place that I can’t afford, but the housing market here is almost non-existenent for sellers. It is costing me thousands of dollars each month to simply hang on, and after my recent visit back home, I am telling myself that it is past time to make a significant change. I am simply not sure what change to make or how to make it. But I am ready to seek some answers,

A lot of new and positive things have begun happening for me in 2018, but my frustration about my inability to sell my house is thwarting me. And frustration overwhelms me and suffocates me.

“What if you were always stuck in one place, your mind spinning and unable to go forward like tires clenched in mud, because the answers wouldn’t reveal themselves to you?” ― Will Lavender, Obedience

“One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree.
‘Which road do I take?’ she asked.
“Where do you want to go?’ was his response.
‘I don’t know,’ Alice answered.
‘Then,’ said the cat, ‘it doesn’t matter.’ “

-Lewis Carroll-

When I am hopelessly stuck. I quit caring about where I am going next–or whether I am going anywhere at all. When I am stuck, dying seems just as good as living. When I am stuck, I enter an existence mode, and art does not spring from an existence mode.

“There is no true loss in authentic growth, only the natural process of letting go, outgrowing, pruning. The call of the next level requires it. Those who resist the connective opportunities that life brings to grow to their next level, never reach the mental maturity height to acquire it…even when they think they are on the path, their gap in understanding leaves them stuck where they left off, usually on a deadmilled-treadmill.” ― Tracey Bond

I’ve recently returned home, and I’ve realized that there is a life that is better than mere existence, and I have reached out for a rope that I trust will tug me out of my sinking sands. Relief comes in stages, however, and it begins with Belief. After years of merely hanging on, I have begun to believe that life wants more for me, and I am ready to break free and to grasp that something that is better.

“The reason a lot of people can’t find happiness is because they don’t look for it. They allow themselves to be stuck in the same situations. Sometimes happiness comes with the courage to break free.” ― Ron Baratono, The Writings of Ron Baratono

“Declare your life an emergency… then get started and keep pushin!” ― Sheila Tiller-Tooks


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